ANOTHER BIRTHDAY

Today was your birthday. I was working today when Pandora played the song "Yellow".  How could it be a coincidence? I realized it's getting easier to hear this song.  I felt the lump in my throat and the tears swelling in my eyes, but I decided to think of how much I love you instead of how much I miss you. It helped get me though. You fill me.

Look at the stars

look how they shine for you

and all the things you do

And you were all yellow

JUST YOU

my mind is constantly writing

a letter to you

not a postcard or a memo

but a manuscript

It is never ending

with no beginning

it's just

you

YOU ARE BOTH

It happened in an instant

they said you were gone 

They said they couldn't save you

it was an ocean of waiting

I didn't expect those words

I sat and my mind went blank

I was numb as a rag doll

limp as my breath

That moment in time was

both the beginning and the end

When the worlds collide it is a rebirth

nothing is ever the same 

The past memories of you are always

a blink behind my eyes

The future is always stalking me

a shimmer in the curtain

You are a new memory every day

For you have never left me

You have never been forgotten

You are my most 

sacred 

heart